happy moo year to all

This year's Chinese New Year has been on the quiet side, probably because of the recession, no one seems to be in the mood to be generous and probably because of the awkward dates where we only get 2 pathetic days of public holidays as compared to China who does the big bang for TWO WEEKS. But oh wells, we don't need 7 hours to travel from Point A to B in Singapore so yup, quit complaining. China only has 2 one week holidays for the entire year!

Been packing my days to the brim before I officially become a working adult. As i entered Yr3, I began to think about whether should i further my studies or to find a job. I had my concerns and weighed my pros and cons. I took in a lot of factors and after a while, perhaps this is what I need. A break from the "standard" route and to refresh my spirit and mind. But I am not giving up on my undergraduate dreams, I am just putting them on hold. Afterall, in such desperate economic times, I should thank my lucky stars to be able to have found a job in a field i am interested in. -smiles-

The 1000 odd goodie bags.

I welcomed in the "Niu" Year at Kallang Leisure Park, working. It was joint-stations countdown thingy with 958, 972 and 933. Not exactly a bad idea because at least it gave me the extra cash I got to see and work with my dearest Ah Neal again and not to mention i saw my favourite new artiste..

WU JIA HUI!

Was uber excited to see him again and i felt damn happy when he actually kind of still remembered me. -swoons- WU~ JIA~HUI. His is one voice that melts my heart and his songs held memories and special meanings to me, once. But anyways, I hope he makes it big, I think he is a gem that shouldnt be buried under the many other pretty singers who really look good but sounds like crap.

Spot the twins! =)

Happy food at tcc.
Sweet things to warm my soul.

Visited my maternal grandma side on the 2nd Day of CNY and it was a blast seeing my cousins. Hung out with Meng and Bestie and caught Bride Wars which according to Meng was a very "my type" of shows cox I like Gossip Girls. -rolls eyes- While Meng snores decided to give an orchestric cresendo, Jess and I chatted the whole night through, very sure that Meng heard nothing incriminating. -guffaws-

King and Queen of 8 Eggs

Headed down to NUS to find Desmond for a chat. Lucky him, while i slaved away in China, he was in civilized America, witnessing Obama becoming Mr. President and enjoying AnF sales. -pouts-

I think it is amazing how we managed to maintain our friendship despite not having a single common friend (except Huiven whom we only realised like, last year?) and common ground (Blogging and msn doesn't count). So yea, but i am glad to have a friend like him. Because we are so alienated from our essential groups of friends, we can share almost everything with one another without fearing that the other person will spill the beans. I mean, who can we spill it to?

So, it's CNY.
A year ago and a year now.
Different vibes and all.
Blame the recession.
Blame the changes.

Me,
I'll just move on.

strength

I am back for only a week but yet i feel as though i have been back forever.
It has been a furry of catching up with people but somehow deep inside me i feel a tad weird. 4 months may have gone by in a flash but many things have changed. The shops i used to go, some have winded up, some have been replaced, just like some people.

My virgin trip to town after returning is with these 2 lovelies. China would have been more memorable if MOE didnt steal you guys away!

Perhaps i have been too free that is why i let emotions get to me with the onslaught of issues but i know i need to face my giants. The 18 weeks taught me not only to face every difficulties but most importantly, it taught me to face myself and my inner demons and insecurities.

Celebrating Andy's Big 3-0 with bestie and jinli serving us =)

Satisfying my zichar craving with the Smurfs

At the Henderson Wave with the church people to celebrate Joy's 27th

Says, an old man trapped in an adolescent body.
I'll miss you when you're gone.

Twit, my dearest "Agyness Dean"
You're Singapore's loss, Aussie's gain.

Keeping myself busy is my form of escapism. It gives me the excuse not to think.
Shopping makes me feel happy, i guess that is why the call it retail therapy, because it works, like morphine. But when the effect wears out, the giants come running after me again.

Chinatown and PS with Ven and Nick.
Seniors in name though technically I turn 21 first!

I wonder what the future holds and how long can my frail heart take everything.
Maybe it was a mistake right from the start.
Maybe it will bring about a good turn.
Maybe it will tear us apart.
Maybe sometimes maybe, I have only me, my brains and my thoughts to blame.


No hysteria
No tears
No regrets
Just memories.
Life goes on, doesnt it?

home

18 weeks flew by in a flash and now I am comfortably seated at home, watching my SCV, surfing my Internet without worrying when it will cut off, eating my well-missed Singapore food...
I should be contented but why do i wake up in the morning feeling weird and empty inside?

homecoming

The last few days of my Wuhan life is a little more than exciting.
I puked.
I cried.
I nearly died.

Okay, an exaggeration but i was on the verge of burying my head in my toilet bowl when i was on a puking constantly for the entire day after my last Chu Culture exam paper. Some say it was indigestion, i would rather think i was miraculously impregnated by my 0823 Orlando Bloom-lookalike and Redhead Michael.

But anyways.

It's 3.24am, 17 January 2008.

I AM COMING HOME!

-grins-

xoxo

1 paper down,
5 more to go.

For the past 2 years odd in NP, I have only gloriously taken 3 written exams.
Now i have to take 6 freaking papers for 6 useless modules that will probably be out of my life once I leave school.
It feels like taking O Levels again.
Just that this time, I take the 6 papers without an aim of going anywhere.
I just wanna get it over and done with and watch my telly.

Hooked on Gossip Girl ;
I want my episode 15 NOW.
Why is America airing this show only ONCE a pathetic week, lost lonely souls like me needs the Upper East Side's scandals to make her feel better.

Why is Dan Humphrey not real?
Is is that hard to have a happily-ever-after ending?
-whines-

Blair to Chuck : "why can't we be like them?"

and 篮球火.
I think Jerry Yan is uber gorgeous.
I think Jerry Yan is super cute.
I think Jerry Yan is ultimately handsome.

Have I told you how cute Jerry Yan is yet?
-swoons-

He may not be able to dance as groovily as Show Luo in the show.
But his smile, his smile , his smile!
-knees goes weak-

yeah 我是Superman
yeah 我是Superman
yeah 我是Superman
yeah 你是 Loser.

Okay, time to hit the sack then the books.
I hate exams.
It's a total waste of brain cells and pen ink.

i don't wanna

Cosmopolitan :
What i buy to fill up the Cleo/8DAYS/iWEEKLY/thenewpaper/The Straits Times emptiness

2 weeks before I left for Wuhan, I had insomnia.
I couldn't sleep at ease because I was worried, afraid of the 18 weeks that was looming before me.

Now, 2 weeks before I leave Wuhan and return home to Singapore, insomnia hits me again.
I don't know what the future holds and how things will be like back home.
People, lifestyle, habits.

Perhaps it is my mind going on an overdrive, i tend to let thoughts run loose and strangle optimism.
Somehow the 18 weeks in Wuhan is like an escape to Neverland.
All that matters was simple.
Whether is it time to top up our electricity bill and water.
Whether our taobao goods will arrive.
Where to go for lunch/dinner.
Where to shop and explore.
Who are the better looking international students.
Who are the ti-ko pehs we need to be wary of.
When is classes.
When will it snow.
What is the temperature.
What shows to watch on HBO/华娱/Discovery/星光.

I can knit =)

Little things that peppered our 18 weeks.
From the start, I was uber looking forward to going home.
Now, a part of me prefers to sink back and not face reality.

I wanna go home then.
Now,
I don't know.

Simplicity is such a draw.
Yet it is a dream I do not really want to wake up from.

Hello 2009

Goodbye, 2008.
They said that you will take a certain period of time to learn life's biggest lessons.
I beg to differ.
It took me just one night.
Just one night of chatting with 14 other souls to discover and unravel some knots.
Sometimes all we need is just to love our self.

The Last Sweetest Miracle of 2008

It was a simple and casual countdown affair to 2009 in my room as usual with the lovelies.
15 of us crammed in a room with drinks and snacks.
Wangyu probably had his brain froze silly because he actually bought Chivas on his own accord.
It cost a freaking 130RMB!
I mean yes, it is cheap in Singapore sense but still,
WHAT POSSESSED THAT BOY TO BE SO GENEROUS SUDDENLY?
-scratches head-
Nothing bad, in fact i think it was an uber nice gesture of his but it is quite an amount still.
Thank you, Steven Wangyu =)


None of us were knocked out despite the bottles of alcohol we had.
I think it was probably due to the fact that we were chatting through the night, from 10 till 4am.
And i guess through the chats, we learnt a lot about love, life and one another.

My resolutions for 2008 didn't come through because i forgot about it.
I decided that there was no point in listing down resolutions that i will never fulfill or it requires a mighty willpower.
There is only one resolution i will try to stick through this new year
and that is
"Never make someone a priority in your life if you are just an option in his."


So in this 2009
i wish for all my loveliest friends to be happily blessed, healthily joyful and never to be taken for a ride.
i wish that this wish will come true.
Because i think the 15 of us deserves to be blissful and loved.

Happy 2009, world =)