hate.frustration

I hate assignments
because i utterly have no inspiration write about Beijing, about China, about Chu culture.

I hate Acer
because after i sent my lappie for a regular check up, it cock up.

I hate Acer's after service
because it does not have a 24hr hotline for me to call when i need help.

I hate China's air pollution and cold weather
because the dust and chill killed my lappie.

I hate this China immersion
because I had lappie problems from the start.

I hate my lappie
because you died when i need you most TWICE.

I hate myself
because no matter how I protect, no matter what
I still fail myself
I still lose the battle
I still suffer punishments.

God is fair
but
it takes a mighty heart to stop falling away.