losing

Humans are a dumb lot.
Or rather, I think i am like the Queen of this dumb lot.
We know what we should and should not do but somehow, our actions never tally with our thoughts.I was reading Danny Yeo laoshi's blog, and in one of his posts, he spoke about how a person have different facets to himself. There's a "Working Bel", a "At-home Bel", a "in CHS Bel" , a "with XX Friend Bel", a "with ABC friend Bel" and so on.
There are so many Bels in one Bel.
I wonder. does all these Bels make up that one very special Bel.
Or, am i suffering under the many facets that suits the each individual i am with?

I guess I lost myself along the way.
I don't know when I'll find myself back.
Maybe I never will.
Maybe I should not.
Because, you can't turn back time, you can't un-scar a hurt.

We are all moving on.
Only silly me harboured the hope that everything will remain the same.
I forgot the very basic principle in life:
The only thing constant is change.

A Tom Cruise movie once had this famous line "You want the truth? You can't handle the truth!".
True to its core.
I want the truth.
Yet as I seek it, the more I back and fall away.

I just can't handle it all.
It's only when you lose something then will you learn and want to treasure it.
I've lost myself and I want to find and treasure myself back.

I hope you learn to treasure me before I fall away again.