one month and counting

I've lost count of the number of times i let my blog died.
Perhaps I've been lazy
Perhaps I'm just not that committed
Perhaps my internet refuses to cooperate
Perhaps school has overpacked my time too much
Perhaps I just let revolving thoughts remain so
Perhaps...I just didn't know how to express myself.

It's been a whirlwind one month of action.
Attended Aunna and Pastor Adrian's wedding, was their usher for the church ceremony and part of the party revellers at the wedding dinner.
Aunna and the rest of the girls made me wore a dress for both ceremonies, a first for me.

Wearing a dress, is not as revolting as i thought it to be.
At least i think i prefer to don a dainty dress than trying to squeeze my arse into a skirt. It's such tough job to find a skirt that fits well really. But anyways, i still prefer my top-and-jeans combo anytime. comfort always come first. =)

I wonder how would my wedding be like.
Would it be such a celebrated and blessed event?
Or would i even get married.
Someone once told me, the ideal person never exists.
The more you want to find such a guy, the more he avoids you.
The more tightly you cling on to the relationship, the more fragile it gets.

I have absolutely no idea about the future.
School, Work, Family, Life.
Really, what would I be like 5 years from now?