misanthropic

Video production has started and has been a great eye-opener.
I don't aspire to be as great as Wong Kar Wai or Quentin Tarantino.
All I want
is to hear my name called out during the Golden Horse Award/Oscars.

But i guess, the chances of me being a hot-shot director is near to zero.
I am much more gifted in handling the slate.
- laughs -
How about giving me an award for "The Best Slate Girl - Scene 1 Shot 1 Take 1"?

-grins- this is called building tall castles in the middle of nowhere.

Humans are a capricous and weird lot.
I always wonder which bugger came up with the idea that humans are the smartest animal on earth. MY FOOT. Looking at my dear ah mao, i think i much rather be a cat.

Where all day long, my dear cat's only worries are :
- whether my master is going to feed me my favourite meat
- can i don't get a bath
- can i sneak out to eat the neightbour's bonsai plants
- why are the birds talking to me in the morning
- why cant i parade freely on the window ledge!?
- which is the best spot to sleep in the house.

Humans, on the other hand worry like never before :
- how can i beat that mugger and be the top nerd
- where should i go eat
- will i ever get married?
- how can i eat and NOT grow fat
- how to earn the most cash in the shortest time
- is there anyway i can grow taller?
- how to curry favour with my boss/teacher.


Humans, think too much, care too much, worry too much.
Not that i hate inter-personal relationships or i am some hermit, i pride myself to be amiable(at least to some la...), just that, i am tired of all the inter-personal relationships breakdown i am seeing and hearing lately.

WHY IS IT SO BLOODY HARD TO MAINTIAN A CIVIL RELATIONSHIP?
- twirls my curls and yank it all off -

i swear, until i get my inhibitions released,
i am not going that extra mile in.
i'll probably get you and me, both killed.
horribly.
seriously.

i hate groupings seriously.

Some blessings can be a burden.
Not that i don't want to be blessed, but i think someone forgot to remind me that blessings are tests too.

I thought we were all suppossed to be matured?
So why the animosity?
So why the complaints?
So why, the attempt to break something as fragile as relationships?

We all yearn for honesty.
We all yearn for peace.
We all yearn for simplicity.
We all yearn for acceptance.

But looking at situation now,
it's kamikaze.
You're killing yourself with your own bare hands.

Selfish?

I'm disillusioned too.

The road to simplicity is a complex one.
The road to happiness is a teary one.
How ironic
Can we all be.

year 2

i get all cynical and turn my nose up at the term "time flies".
albeit it IS a fact that time flies.
i just refused to admit this fact.
gawd, i'm year 2 now.

so, the past few days were fabulous.
HMS Orientation Camp was a camp to be reckoned with and i'm darn proud of my group 2 - PODDERS! i think, you guys are a great bunch of freshies =)
It was a jubiliant outcome for the entire school and Mrs Choo our director when we were crowned 2nd for the NP Telematch.
i told you, HMS is THE school to watch out for. -winks-

Went on to Trybe event at Hua Yi Sec.
it brought nostalgia back for me.
seeing how adorably enthusiastic the secondary school students were, it got me thinking about how lucky and how fast teens nowadays grow.

Time sure flies.

On the first day of being Year 2, headed down to Rochor for Tau Huay with Ben and Mich. i think, seriously, as i grow older, i really enjoy such kick-back R.O.C sessions with people whom i'm uber comfy with.
the sec sch peeps, poly lovelies, a05 darls and church family.

somehow, life seems more innocent during such easy moments.
it's like ecstacy.
how i forgot the treacheries of the evil world that is bent on bringing me down.

perhaps i should just sue TVB.
influx of HK dramas from a tender age is simply brain corruption.
i'm bloody one of them.
UGH.

Good Friday!

I give thanks for a wonderful friend called Vanessa who happens to have a IT expert for a boyfriend - Nicholas, who did the honours of setting up my router and thus, therefore, I am able to blog! HAHA.

2 more weeks till the start of Year 2.
I wonder how my juniors will take to me.
I wonder how I will survive Year 2.
I wonder will I be able to concentrate in class because i'm seeing Lee Tong Kong and Danny Yeo for the entire semester.
I wonder how I am able to wonder more than the average 19year olds.

Whatever it is,
i'll let the pictures do the talking.
owed too many people too many pictures.
HAHA