Thursday, February 28, 2008

all i want is just to let out and cry

I'm growing tired
I'm growing morbid
I'm growing phlegmatic
I'm growing immune



Went down to Red Dawn Communications for my attachment interview. Check out my very puffy eyes, i think i looked horrid today but then again, i never looked hot yea? Doncha wish your girlfriend looks crap like ma? -guffaws-

It's depressing to find my once lusicious locks now balding.
My thoughts that goes in circles and the stress that CHS gives has to bear this tragic responsibility!
sigh, yunnan and bejing 101 wants a share in burning the already very big hole in my pocket.

someone once told me that singapore very small, very tough to get lost.
but i did.
emotionally and physically.
red dawn communications shifted and i went running from club st(old premises) to their new location at some ulu Norris Street.
the taxi uncle gave me a tour of Little India cox we couldnt locate that miserable street.
waste of money and time.
ugh!

took a shot of little india.
a bustling side of singapore that we often laughed at.
i think it is amazing that this little maze has so much life.
and i'll be eating curry and smelling of jasmine
if i get posted to red dawn.
sigh
club street better
at least i feel at home in cheena-little-town.

and i hope you guys are safe and well in zhejiang
t02 is left with only the 6 of us
and i'm still deeply missing you guys.
=(
ni men yao jia you o!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

dead

staring into empty space; holed up in a corner

sometimes
i think
i give out so much
yet
i received little

sometimes
i think
i am
being unreasonable


sometimes

i think
the appreciation
is one-sided

sometimes
i think i am
deluding myself
betraying myself


i am just whining in no man's land
pardon me as i unveil my spoilt side

Sunday, February 24, 2008

goodbye my love

Counting down: 4days till i bid my lovelies goodbye

The farewell party was a rousing success i must say. Somehow i feel a little apologetic to my seniors. the 2 farwell parties are as different as heaven and earth. perhaps it's because of the different dynamics. our batch seems a little closer, a little more involved, a little more down to earth.

I was smart enough not to apply eyeliner and mascara on that day, choosing to keep my make up to the barest minimal. I knew my my tear glands wanted to be introduced to the world that day. i miss kwek.

even though he did not directly taught me any modules before he left for greener pastures, i just somehow felt connected to him like a fatherly figure. when i saw his face on screen, i just let the tears row down.

when our t02 video came up, i think there wasnt a single dried eye in t02. i'm sorry for my very evil taste and selection of songs. Yao scolded me for that. haha i know i know. while piecing together the video, i cried too.

i do know that this is not goodbye forever.
but i do know that the times we meet will get lesser
but each time we meet, we will look forward to it and treasure it.









我们不哭在分开的场面
我们拥抱弥扑所有的抱歉
没有遗憾今天是最好的句点
以后还能一起面对面

我们不哭在回家的房间
成熟能让所有伤痛少一些
没有眼泪并不代表爱很浅
而是懂得微笑着让彼此怀念

Monday, February 11, 2008

hoho happy new year

So it's the ang pow season again.
Where it is totally fashion justifiable to be walking around in broad daylight clad in total red and carrying 2 oranges while making your rounds to your relatives/friends/colleagues and sucking them dry of their $2/4/10/20.

Oh glorious CNY!

Went to my maternal side on the 2nd day of CNY and my just married cousin brought her wedding pictures for us to gawk.
Flipping through, i found an ultra nice pic of my cousin Keith that i could not resist but to snap it and show it off...

WHY THE GOOD GENES NEVER PASS ON TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess we all grew up.
from wearing Ripcurl boardshorts for CNY to Levis to dresses.
from tanned face to painted face
from Nike to NUM to sky high heels
from centre-parting bob to coloured curls
i guess i grew up and am embracing my growing years.

CNY.
a time where we reflect how much we've all grown up and apart.
i realised that it is a pity that i never managed to be closer to my cousins.
Perhaps it's because of our age gaps or maybe i just did not try harder to rein in our relationships.

it's too fake to be calling ourselves cousins but yet we only meet during CNY or weddings or funerals.