fade away

I realised this is my last semester in ngee ann
I realised what i used to adore seems like a chore now
I realised what i envisioned never seem to come true
I realised that all the dreams are fading away.

Little sleep never bothered me before but lately, my brain malfunctions when it doesnt meet my pillow often.Researchers at Harvard has confirmed that when a person suffers from lack of sleep, he or she is easily irritable and emotions fluctuate. Sounds scary. But add on the fact that the person is having the time of the month and does not have enough sleep, what you get is a perfect combination for explosion.

I'm sick and tired of all the assignments, deadlines and loss of brain juices on useless stuff.
I'm sick and tired of all the advantages taken, things left unsaid, matters uncertain.
I'm just sick and tired of it all.



I'm just a poor girl who wants to tear herself away from it all and see the rainbow in the sky.

oh oh oh OH!

It suddenly dawned on me that i am indeed way past my teenybopper days.
I went down to Peicai to offer support for a friend.

The thumping of the heart
The shedding of tears
The realisation of choices

3 years back, i was in my smurfs uniform feeling the same
3 years now, i am in my poly uniform, feeling the same

i wonder how many of these kids out here realised the importance of decisions.
The decision of going to a poly, jc, private institution, retaking O's.

They say, we should always plan for our future, plan the next step.
I say, plan the next few steps.
Because your future lies in your puny hands

and, poly is NOT the poor cousin of JC.
Elites who can handle the stress and be independent joins the polys

and please, CHS is NOT the poor cousin of FMS
we have a future.
look at China and tell me again if we have no future.

=)

Goodbye 2007 hello 2008

I know i'm a day late but nonetheless, a Happy 2008 to everyone! -guffaws-

2007 has been a roller coaster year.
The ups and downs were aplenty.
The tears I shed are enough to drown a whole herd of cows.
The laughter I had are enough to compensate my tears.

I knew 2007 would be a tough year from the start.
I always believe that karma's a bitch and if 01 january 07 was bad,
the rest of 2007 will be crap.
And I was right.

But thinking back, I'm proud to say I survived.
School was hell as usual.
The As seems further than usual.
The decisions seems cruel than ever.
The friendships were tested and the lasting ones went on tighter.

Thank you to everyone who saw me through my tantrums and frustrations.
Thank you for giving me hope when life was bleak.
Thank you for bringing back the true meaning of joy and love when all I saw was grey.
Thank you.

Thank you, God,
for giving me blessings that are hard to come by....

My FCBC family
CHS lovelies (JESSYAOMEI, jinli, weiting, cindy, shuang, mingxiu especially)
YEP 7 wolves (Andy, JunHua, Ah Dong, Wayne, Song Keat, Police, Jingmian)
NTSS buddies (Jac, Jan, Kris, PeiXuan, Weidong, Twit, Kok, Eddie)
A05 dearies (Alicia, Jiemin, Anita)
PHPPS kakis (Abel, Siew Chin)

I dont know what will become of us 10 years down the road.
But I hope for the best in 2008, first.
That I will have time to catch up with everyone.

May it be a blessed year and may joy overfloweth!
Cheers to 2008!