crap.

got back my results yesterday. i'm disappointed. for my 10 years in education, i never once got a c6 for english. but now, for o's i did. did i over-estimated myself? all i asked for was an A or a B but God, You gave me a C and a C6. what's the reason? what's Your plan for me?
i'm dashed. cried so much. it was as though my world came crashing down, but i know i'm not the worst case around town. i know i understand but at least please understand my feelings?
nonetheless, there are still things to thank You for.

thankful for passing all my subjects, esp bio n a maths. and at least i am able to make it to poly.
thankful for ah pa Chris n ah ma Joy, who came down to offer support n encouragement. thanks for trying to cheer me up n telling me not to give up. thank you.
thankful for all my bros n sistas, clement jasmine jac julie weiting dee eunice weiwen david mich aunna mirabel julee, thank you for letting me seek comfort in you guys n all the inspirational messages n support. thank you. you guys really am my family.
thankful for all the good friends, christine jane darren weixiang eddie kokguang annabel ng sharmaine leekuan wafa baoling simin peixuan vanessa yihui diane teresa elson victoria ruiyi jiaxi hankiat arson xueli charle miss tan lianlian madam nisah miss lau mrs ang, thanks for everything, for being there to tell me to jiayou n not give up n all the hugs. thank you.
thankful for my 05a05 peeps, alicia anita eileen jiemin, thank you n sorry to make u guys worried. thanks for the calls n love.

perhaps words aint enough to express my gratitude to all of you guys. i guess if dee didnt come to hug me immediately and you guys to come and encourage me, i dont know what will happen. thanks for showing me love and most importanly not looking down on me and telling me God must have a purpose for me.

my brother is scaring me and he suggested i might as well dont apply for poly. i don't know. at this stage of life, i cant help but wonder God, why me again? did i studied hard enough? all i know is that i threw in all my effort but it all came down to a nought. my english. that was one hard blow. so where should i go now? i cant seem to see the light at the end of my tunnel.help.

o's are getting nearer...

k k to update any faithful readers of my blog..if there is any! lolx.
last friday was like the last day of school for my class la. so it was all cameras out n cheese galore. the entire class was present n i was able to hand out the little presents that i made for each of them. it was a small gift la...a card plus a class photo so yup...hope they like it! =D
then we headed to lot 1 the "let's eat" to have our so-called "Last Lunch"..pretty cool. man did i tell u how much i love my class? hehe
most of us are spiliting up n going to poly n jcs so yah...but the 05A05 peeps going to NP, let's meet for lunch n tea eh! hehe
went for guides campfire yesterday.."Passion". k la, i mean what else can i say? thigns could be betta i guess but oh well.
sigh, my cat jus finished eating another of my neighbour's bonsai plants..oops! hope they don't find out..shhh!!! crap! o's results are coming out in less then 24 hours!!! i'm beginning to have bouts of anxiety attacks..oh crap. going to like stay over at clement's house today with the whole lot of others mad-caps but yea the last night before our nightmare is presented upon us...AARGH!!!!

Lit Play

woo-hoo 05A05 we RAWK!!!! haha...today was PJC IETL Day so in short all the J1 Lit Classes had to put up a Lit play la. n my wondeful superb class decided to do Shakesphere's 12th Night! heh heh..Chah wrote the script in a way that it was different from the Bard la but still nontheless great! managed to get Joy to came to watch my play..i'm the assistant director so yup! *ahem* had to like "punished" Jerold to get him come n watch. had he not come n watch, he'll most prob incur the wrath of mine n his life is finished...what are brothers for? *fake sweet smile*
apparently the response from the audience was overwhelming..joy, jac, mich n nic all said our play was VERY IMPRESSIVE! yeah! haha...cant imagine such a succesful play without anyone of us! everyone was laughing at our jokes. n even though there was a minor hiccup at the part of Sir Topas putting on his coat, thak goodness Firdaus n GuoWei managed to ride through it so smoothly that NO ONE knew it was a mistake! *whew*
after our play went to town to watch movie with joy, jac n mich..watch Ray..great movie! haha den sat down at the mac outside Lido n simply sat down n chat la..finally that twit messaged me! i thought he was dead or simply ignoring me la..haha!

to 05A05:

the play was a success because we really put in our heart n soul.

sorry if i as the assistant director didnt do a very great job but still

i love u guys so so much!

Rachel, u am a SUPERB director, bet u didnt realised jus watching u direct the cast, i've gained a lot of knowledge. Chah, u're a genius to come up with such a script. MC n tessa, costume was perfect, thank you. Jiemin, love ya! u're such a nanny as a stage manager! Petrina n cheryl, wonderful music! Emelyn n kaiqi, lights was great thankx! michelle, thankx for the props! The cast, man u guys can really act! impressive! lova all of ya lots lots lots! muakcx!

CRASHER!

am in my mum's office in ngee ann now...woo-hoo..ponned school today, but i had reasons! hehe..went to crash mass com lecture at ngee ann! was afraid that we would get caught but yea thank God! apparently, clement's friend Denise have a friend, lydia, in mass com and she somesort of invited us to crash la. she figured the lecturer prob will realise we are crashers so she beforehand informed her of our presence. =D
it was kind of like an eye-opener. as much as i wished to be part of the mass com students, i'm leaving my O results to God. If it's meant to be, it'll be. even if say in the future, i cant get in, at least i was able to attend this lecture!
the results are coming out soon..totally having insomnia n nightmares. last night i dreamt of a scene from a drama serial...man like what has the scene of police detectives got to do with my results?!?! hahha..see, waiting for the results to be announced is the most n ultimate nerve-wrecking experience! =S
somehow i dont feel like going to school anymore. no one to blame but myself..who asked myslef to be like so mentally prepared to go poly that now i totally hecked JC studies. the only reason why i'm still attending is because #1: i love 05A05..how many times have i said this!!??? hehe #2: i love my Lit n hist n Chinese A Lit teachers..mr yeo, mr ng n miss chin! #3: God must have a reason why He gave me this chance to go PJC for the first 3 months.
so yup..that more or less are reasons which i've said before but still...*wan smile*

it felt like yesterday when i was still busy mugging
it felt like yesterday when everyone was happy and at peace
it felt like yesteday where things were still same.
it felt like yesterday
if only it could be yesterday.

goodbye mal..

went to airport to send malcolm off today..he had a huge entourage to send hm off at terminal 2. apparently all students abound for Australia were leaving today on the same flight (i suppose)..so yea there were like dunno how many groups of fellow adolescents sending their friends off.
mal was real cute. he even came to crash PJC today! lolx..i'm so going to miss him! know he prob won't read my blog but i'm still going to say I MISS YOU n COME BACK SOON..get urself an Aussie babe n DON"T lose weight! haha...it was real touching la there were like 20 odd of us..only 4 girls..me, baoling, jinli n deviana. then at the point of time when he had to enter the gates. we jus started mass hugging n yeah..tears were shed. the girls started the ball rolling n the GUYS teared too! mal cried..first time i ever seen him cry...dabin, edwin,weixiang n even benjamin, all their eyes were red. sigh..his aunty who is real pretty n young was like telling us that what mal's most worried about is that when he come back we all have our own clique n ignore him...no way man mal! you're the man! haha
sigh the date of o level results are drawing nearer..wonder ponder..gotta go..my bro wanna use com..will tag others blog someday! cheerios!

lost of my youth

haha..was a bad girl yesterday..din go school...cox the entire class made a pact n we all pon together..woo-hoo! talking about unity..lolx.
den went out with jieminn colin..wanted to watch movie but end up didnt cox min had to go back for dinner so we jus simply walked around..haha den saw zhiren, martin,weilong n weimin at the bus-stop..haha min said zhiren n martin were cute..haha MIN!!!
den today morning went to jasmine's place..k la..received angpow $$$ den jus slacked at her place..the rest went down for service while i went to my uncle's place at some ulu ulu place at pasir ris...once again, i slacked! ugh! total waste of my youth...*grinx* thank goodness at elast my cousins are cute..haha that made up for all my lost youth...muahaha
sigh..hafta missed service...oh well,i'll go tml morning. =(

i wanna watch CONSTANTINE!!!!!!!!!!

oooo..last heard the o's results are coming out on the 21st..man..totally dread that coming day man..i wonder will i cry tears of joy or tears of...CHOY! *guffaws*
gotta go..my cousin staring over my shoulder..haha! *winkx*

cny..

went back to new town today..haha somehow it was more of like a sec4 gathering. met lotsa ppl..hugged lotsa peeps..realized that soemhow deep within me, i kinda missed ntss alot. not the school but the people n the general atmosphere. haha mebbe cox i was there for 4 years so i know most of the teachers n ppl thee. the teachers know me too ( which may not be a good thing..haha oh well!). jus reminiscing. yupp



malcolm has green highlights, arik is as fair as white chocolate..haha i know mal's not going to read this but mal, i'm so going miss u when u're gone! haha everybody now, awwwww! haha



went town after that with jac, chow, jer n clement. din really shopped la i brought only 16 bucks out jus to prevent me from overspending. saw stuff i liked..haha after cny i'll buy em! lolx. that's what cny's here for. town was quite sian? haha mebbe cox i practically go there everyday..after school n on the way to school..can recite the entire route of orchard if u want me too..retarded! haha



was reading thru ppl's blogs..there is this attack of the melancholy. everyone's feeling down..hating him or herself. is there such a need? why cant we all see the light of the tunnel? life's never hopeless..u know the reason why.

kayaking

woo-hoo i'm roasted all over! went for the kayaking star 1 course during the weekend at changi. was great! i'm now certified n thus am able to rent kayaks out! haha..yea man! wad a accomplishment! haha..the course basically jus taught n tested us on our basic skills n capsizing. i totally detest the rescue n capsize drill..n the waves didn't helped much either. drank lotsa sea water n they happilu entered my nose so now i'm down with a running nose..ugh!

didnt want to go school today but i still did because my class was singing the school song in front of the entire school's population. was fun la in a sense..i mean u never get to do this in new town oh well! lotsa ntss ppl came to crash today..malcolm, weixiang, wai kit,edmund n benjamin. all from jjc except mal who's leaving for canberra on the 15th! haha i'm so going to miss malcolm n his beloved stomach (which i love punching!) lolx

oh crap..i used to be a sun worshipper but now with the sun burns n aching arms from kayaking..i'm so going to avoid the sun! haha n yes! tml no school! i love the PJC principal Mr Queck nor! he even fight to get friday off for us but MOE disallowed..so much for being open..bah!=S ok even though i'm going poly..but to those who wanna go jc..i'll recommend ya PJC! the principal really cares for the student alot n the teachers are great! so yup..PJC all the waaaay!

aiyo the guys ah

today school was ok..Chinese A wasnt very horrible..that Tham lao shi was crazy but wadeva la. haha thank God i wasnt the only one who didnt hand in the chinese compo..800 words!! ugh! haha..den during Civics period was talking to mr augustine ng about JC n university. he's actually real nice n he was like advising me about choosing the courses in poly n life in JC stuff liddat. our class is going to lead the school in singing the sch song on Mon! lolx..we had a little taining session in class den went to hall to do the line up. we made Glenn to play us a little tune on the piano n he played us ABBA's "the winner takes it all"..Glenn totally knock our socks off! power!



went down to town with clement, michelle n jasmine to look for chris's present haha..that guys practically has everyting except a girlfriend! lolx. den chris came down to meet us n apparently he arranged a dinner with the guys la. the guys ah really dunno how to treat their ah-pa well. he has to organised his own birthday dinner n even get his own cake. when he asked them to suggest a place to eat, they even suggested going to Mac! i mean like wah-lau! mac for dinner is ok...but mac for birthday dinner is atrocious! at least they end up going to Tiong to celebrate so yup. not saying all the guys are liddat but generally..treat chris betta ba..he's our ah-pa leh!



not stereotyping all the males out there..but where would u guys be n things be done if the girls weren't here?? hmmm...

cough cough

Decided to go school today..class was naturally FUN! haha i simply love 05A05 man..we totally rock PJC nor! today had debates..my class against A06. it was on genetic engineering causes more problems n my class had the upper hand of being the preposition. the debate was quite cool la..A06 was like kind of unprepared? like wad Firdaus said, they screwed up themselves so yup...

we won!

den watched the debate bewteen A03 n A02...A02 won but the best speaker came from A03! haha! my entire class couldn't stand the A02 team because they weren't debating, they were simply attacking the opponents nor. but anyway!during P.E i slacked cox i still dun feel good enuff to run so jus sat there n chatted with glenn, michelle,kaiqi, emelyn n rachel.

Glenn totally amuses n amazes me man! haha he was very adamant to the fact that no ACS Barker boys smoked in the school compounds but the crux here is, rachel knows some ex-ACS Barker guys who DOES smoke in the school compounds!lolx. Glenn, u never fail to amaze n amuse me. because u are simply so innocent n pure! got a feeling that after 3 months with us, u're so going to be corrupted! oops!jus realised that my language proficiency is like going downhill..sigh..ugh crap!